First off, sorry for not posting in so long: I have not felt I have had time to sit down and write like I have wanted to lately: lots has been going on. But my counsellor has actually told me that I shouldn't be so much of a perfectionist and it would be a good idea. So guess what? I'm taking her advice proudly and cheerfully becuase I enjoy writing. So fortunately, or unfortunately for you, you get to read some more of my thoughts. Though they may involve a little bit of venting as well as other emotions. So just a forewarning but hope you can take some wisdom out of it. So here. we. go...
Sometimes I just get really fed up with people’s crap. Like straight up. I get tired of the petty drama and problems that just seem oh so huge and overwhelming. The last few days I have felt just ready to snap on someone— the next person who is pissy because they are having a bad day because someone looked at them wrong or someone heard someone else say something about them behind their back last Tuesday--really? What are these little problems? Recently one of my dearest friends in this world was diagnosed with breast cancer. This, among a lot of other things going on in my life, and her’s, has really change my perspective on things. The little petty things truly don’t matter. This is a lesson God taught me long ago. But it has become more and more clear as I live each day in this situation. Unfortunately, this is not a situation that is easy to handle. I thought I was being strong and handling it well. However, each day this situation gets more and more difficult. Though we are praying, though we are speaking the truth: emotions are still high, frustration and anger as to how and why this is happening is building. I personally have been at peace and felt God’s hand in this situaion so much. I know He is going to use this and use her life to touch and bless and change so many people. She is just struggling and asking God why this is happening to her. I pray that her perspective is transformed: it’s not about why her. It’s not about the pain and suffering this is—and we don’t even know yet how bad this is going to be because the battle against that cancer has just begun—shock and anxiety are all that is there. She feels so angry at God allowing this to happen. However, when I think about the situation, or any difficulty for that matter— it’s not a question of why did God do this, because first of all, God brings healing, restoration, peace, joy and comfort. Satan is who comes to steal, kill and destroy. This is just a situation where God’s glory, power and strength can be manifested into our daily lives. She, and I, as well as everyone in the situation need to remember that GOD IS SO MUCH BIGGER THAN THE CANCER. He can take the worst things in this life and create beautiful things from them. And His plan is so much greater than this temporary pain.
John 10:10 “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
New International Version (NIV)
16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
